it's back

 i've not been sleeping much for weeks. verity is spinning and kicking like crazy, but it's also a lack of stimulation in my life that keeps me up. i'm going for a 1-2 mile walk every day plus walking my dog. other than that i have hours of unclaimed, unscheduled time. 

my mind has been taking me places that i'd prefer not to go. fantasies, longings, memories and wishes. i so wish i was working, i want to be busy and productive, distracted and stimulated. my sex drive came back and i'm so frustrated! i don't want this. i have no parter and dating at almost 8 months pregnant seems crazy....but my hyper sex drive is making me feel crazy. i cannot put the dreams and fantasies up here, they are much too sordid. i know this happens to lot's of pregnant women so at least i know it's normal. in all honesty it's torture. 

this is what i made today in photoshop. it will be on it's own in some form, but also as an element in another piece. it's not really finished, but suits the topic.