being a mommy is having no time, rocking the stroller with my foot so she is calm and i can be on the computer, severe sleep deprivation, learning, sacrifices, getting to know her and myself as a mama, making choices/ decisions with her as the driving force, accepting that my body is not what is was and it will take time to get it back, becoming a complete adult, pediatrician appointments, vaccinations, car seats, breast pumps, sore boobies, unfolded laundry, quick meals, delayed phone calls, no time, no time, no time, knowing that she will teach me and i her, constant awareness of her health and safety, thoughts"can i do this" knowing that i can and am, so much love....and so much more