the identity is shifting so quickly....me ME
verity and me.
i want to change but not everything. it's been about my work and finding love for so long. i found my love, the love of my life and she has found her new love. though it was almost 5 (?) years ago i am still mourning the loss. i've tried to meet someone else, but i cannot seem to....move away from her completely. she is still in l.a. and i am here. i don't know where i should be. i am not happy here. i've been missing her a lot lately.
yes, verity is the ultimate, forever true love of my life.
i miss adult love.
i miss my career self. i am mourning the loss of this, my makeup career may be over. i still love to do it and am good....but i have to have a very steady income/life for verity.
i am stuck, have big debt, no money and i suppose entering a mid-life, new mom, identity crisis.
i'm being whiney. i guess i'm kinda depressed...
looking for a job that i don't really want is very difficult
thankfully i wake up every morning to my beautiful, sweet, charming child.
