Tuesday, June 16, 2009

big, whiney, blah


the identity is shifting so quickly....me ME

verity and me.

i want to change but not everything. it's been about my work and finding love for so long. i found my love, the love of my life and she has found her new love. though it was almost 5 (?) years ago i am still mourning the loss. i've tried to meet someone else, but i cannot seem to....move away from her completely. she is still in l.a. and i am here. i don't know where i should be. i am not happy here. i've been missing her a lot lately.

yes, verity is the ultimate, forever true love of my life.

i miss adult love.

i miss my career self. i am mourning the loss of this, my makeup career may be over. i still love to do it and am good....but i have to have a very steady income/life for verity.

i am stuck, have big debt, no money and i suppose entering a mid-life, new mom, identity crisis.

i'm being whiney. i guess i'm kinda depressed...

looking for a job that i don't really want is very difficult

thankfully i wake up every morning to my beautiful, sweet, charming child.

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